ANGEL RETURNS PART 3

Angel returns
* this chapter is about Connor thinking things through.
* the beginning of this story is the lyrics to a song I think is perfect for Angel and Connor's relationship. The song is called Shattered and I believe the artist is called Trading Yesterday. You guys should look it up.
Part three: Shattered.
Two weeks after part two…
The song on the radio woke him up.
The words immediately caught his attention.
And I've lost who I am And I can't understand Why my heart is so broken Rejecting your love Without love gone wrong Life Less words Carry on But I know All I know Is that the ends beginning Who I am from the start Take me home to my heart Let me go And I will run I will not be silenced All this time spent in vain Wasted years Wasted gain All is lost Hope remains And this war's not over There's a light There's the sun Taking all the shattered ones To the place we belong And his love will conquer And I've lost who I am And I can't understand Why my heart is so broken Rejecting your love Without love gone wrong Life Less words Carry on But i know All i know Is that the ends beginning Who I am from the start Take me home to my heart Let me go And I will run I will not be silenced All this time spent in vain Wasted years Wasted gain All is lost Hope remains And this war's not over There's a light There's the sun Taking all the shattered ones To the place we belong And his love will conquer all Yes his love will conquer all Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding Fall into your sunlight
When the song was over Connor immediately thought of Angel.
He had rejected Angel's love in everyway possible.
He had sunk his father to the bottom of the ocean and he still claimed to love him.
That's when he had realized that his father wasn't going to give up on him.
Even after Angel had punished Connor for what he had done to him Connor had not wanted Angel's love.
And it was now two weeks later and a song had made him understand why.
He had thought he was honoring Holtz by rejecting Angel's love at every turn.
But in truth Connor didn't think he deserved the kind of love Angel had for him.
The kind that was never ending. The kind where it didn't matter what you did they would always love you.
Holtz had always told him that he loved Connor. And that God had brought Connor and Holtz together. But in the time he had been in L.A. he had realized the truth because of the way Angel spoke to him when he had returned. Saying again and again how he had been taken from his true father Angel.
Connor hadn't understood right away. But as he had heard the truth about Justine being the one that killed Holtz. Connor had realized that it had been a scam to make him kill Angel.
And he had went to the library while Angel was gone. and looked and asked a woman what the word stealing meant. Because he knew that taking something was same as stealing it. But he didn't know what stealing was.
She showed him a dictionary and helped him find the word.
Stealing: to take (the property of another or others) without permission or right, esp. secretly or by force: to steal, carry off, or abduct. Also see kidnapping.
Angel had said on many Occasions that Holtz had stolen him. But if that was really what Stealing meant. Then what Holtz had done was Illegal according to the woman explaining what they had read.
God hadn't put them together. Had Holtz stolen him from his crib?
The definition helped him figure out that what Holtz had done was not an act from God.
But an act of vengeance because he wanted Angel to suffer. According to Fred Holtz had threatened to snap Connor's neck if Angel came any closer.
So Angel had tried to rescue him once Holtz had him. But Angel wasn't going to risk Connor's safety. The man he had thought of as his father was really a liar.
And Angel his true father wasn't the monster Holtz had brainwashed him into thinking he was. Holtz had wanted revenge for what Angel did to his family.
But that was the whole problem.
Angel hadn't done those things to Holtz. Angelus had.
And since Angelus was not around anymore didn't that make the revenge sort of unjust in a way.
Angel had a soul and he had tried to make Holtz understand that. But Holtz didn't care.
He had told Connor that his parents were monsters that deserved to die. And almost every other day Holtz told him of story of Angelus and Darla.
It always scared and angered Connor that his true parents were monsters.
But Holtz had also told Connor that Angel and Darla tried to kill him when he was born. And they had called him a parasite. Was that true?
Connor decided that tonight at dinner he would ask Angel his questions and get his answers.
Dinnertime..
Connor sat down at the table with Angel sitting across the table and Gunn and Fred sitting one on each side of the table and Wesley sitting beside Gunn.
"Dad?" Connor said to get Angels attention. And it worked.
Angel looked up at Connor stunned that he had called him dad.
"I have a question." Connor said.
"What is it?" Angel asked.
" When I was inside Darla. My mother. Did the two of you call me a parasite?" Connor asked.
Angel sat back in his chair. He had never called his son a parasite. But Darla had. He wasn't sure what his son wanted him to say to that. So Angel just told him everything. He told him the truth.
"Connor When you were conceived your mother had left me. And when she came back pregnant no one understood what that meant. We had found this prophecy that said that this terrible thing was coming and when Darla showed up pregnant and seeing as that's suppose to be impossible we assumed at first that it was you. That you were the thing from the prophecy. Many people wanted to find out what you were and why you were even there inside of Darla. Anyway we went to a hospital and snuck into a classroom. While Gunn went to find an ultra sound machine so that we could look inside her stomach to see what you were. We all thought that you were going to be some sort of vampire demon mix. Or something evil but when we got a look at you inside of her. Wesley said that you were human. And that you were a boy. We didn't understand that. But the fact remains that your mother and I are vampire's so we didn't understand how a vampire could be pregnant let alone be pregnant with a human baby. At first we debated on weather or not you were going to be a threat and how we were going to kill you if you were one.
But your mother. You have to understand Connor. Yes when you were inside your mother she did call you a parasite. And she often called you IT even after we found out you were a boy. I hate to say it but I wont lie to you Connor. Your mother didn't have a soul. And the only reason she was able to love you at all was because you did have a soul. And while you were inside her you shared your soul with her. You allowed her to feel something for the first time in 400 years. I swear to you Connor your mother loved you more than she has ever loved anything. And when we realized she was loosing you we all thought you were going to die. Darla and I were in the alley with Fred and Darla said "Angel our baby's going to die right here in this alley. You died in an alley. Remember. So much pain and destruction we cant make up for any of it and you know that. This baby Angel it's the one good thing we ever did together. The only good thing." "I put my head down so I didn't have to watch your mother lose you but then she did the unthinkable. She had reached over for a wooden stake that was laying near by and she said" You make sure to tell him that." "And then she staked herself because she loved you. So that you could live. Never doubt for a minute that she loved you. She did. And so do I." Angel stopped because Connor looked like he was about to cry.
Maybe I should have told him that story yet. Angel thought.
" She dusted herself to save me?" Connor asked with his eyes watering.
"Yes." Angel said.
" I wasn't the evil thing from the prophecy then?" Connor asked curious.
"No. It was Holtz that the prophecy was talking about." Angel said.
"And then he came here and stole me from my crib." Connor said. And then saw the looks on the faces around him.
"What. I know Holtz took me. I know he lied about everything. But how did he get in here without being seen if you already knew he was here? Weren't you looking out for his attack?" Connor asked confused.
It was Wesley that answered him.
"Connor. Holtz didn't take you from your crib." Connor looked over at him confused.
"I did. I came across a false prophecy that a demon wrote. The prophecy stated that the father will kill the son. And Wolfram and hart was spiking Angel's pig's blood with yours. And I believed that you were no longer safe with Angel. It was a stupid mistake. I should have seen it for what it was. A trick. There's not a day that goes by that I don't wish I could turn back time and stop myself. When I stole you Connor Holtz knew about it. And Holtz set a trap for me. He had Justine come and she slit my throat and took you and left me there to die." Wesley explained.
" But you're his friend. You saved him from the ocean. Why would you take me? I'm his son. Why did you betray him like that?" Connor yelled as he stood up. Angel stood up too. Ready to protect Wesley.
"Connor. Wesley already paid for what he did. Trust me. I almost killed him while he was still healing in the hospital because I was so angry and I didn't think I would ever forgive him. But I did. Now calm down and have a seat. There will not be any violence tonight." Angel warned him.
Connor could tell that Wesley spoke the truth and that he was sorry for what he did. And he knew Angel spoke the truth too. He had forgiven him for what he had done.
"This is all his fault! He's the reason Holtz got me and took me to a hell dimension! He was your friend! He should have trusted you! You forgave him because he saved you from your watery grave that I made for you. And you forgave me for that too. WE both betrayed and you and you shouldn't have forgiven either of us. He's the reason I am miserable. You went after Holtz and would have killed him but you didn't. and now the true kidnapper is here and you do nothing? Because he was your friend you could forgive him. But I can't and I won't just sit here and do nothing! This is all his fault! And if you can have your vengeance why cant I have mine!" Connor yelled and then tackled Wesley out of his chair. And shoved his up against the wall. Placing his elbow in Wesley windpipe. "Move and I'll crush your wind pipe!" he threatened.
Wesley didn't try to defend himself at all. He knew there was no point. Connor was stronger then he was. And he was right. If Wesley hadn't taken Connor then Holtz never would have gotten him.
Angel stood behind Connor and growled in warning "Let him go!"
Connor glanced back at Angel but even Angel knew that it would take Connor less then two seconds to crush Wesley's wind pipe. Which in turn would kill him. So Angels only option was to hope Connor would listen to reason and not hurt Wesley.
"Please Connor. don't." Fred begged from where she stood.
Then they heard a gun being cocked.
"Let his go Connor or I'll shot you with this Tranquilizer. It'll knock you ass out before you can do anything believe that." Gunn warned.
Connor knew what the gun was. And he knew that Gunn spoke the truth.
Connor realized that they weren't going to let him kill Wesley.
"He took me from you. And you wanted to kill him for it. But I'm the one he took! And it's my right to kill him!" Connor said.
" I'm sorry to hear that Connor. And you may be right. You are the only one who has a right to revenge where Wesley is concerned. But you wont be taking it. And if you try again that dart will be the least of your worries." Angel said.
And then before Connor could realize what Angel meant he heard him say "Shoot him."
And then Gunn shot Connor and Connor fell to the ground unconscious.
To be continued…