THE TRUTH

The truth will set you free.
*This is not related to my other Angel and Connor stories. It is something I have been wanting to write for a while now.
*set in the end of season 3 before Connor puts Angel in the ocean.
THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE
"He Really does love you Connor." Cordelia was saying to him.
" I know that." Connor lied letting her believe her own lies.
His true father was a monster. And a monster could not love you.
Angel might not have been Angelus but he was still a monster.
The same monster that killed Holtz.
And he would pay.
Justine didn't understand.
The best way to punish Angel for what he did to holtz was to make him believe that Connor loved him. And then he would dump him in the ocean.
The vampire didn't love him.
A vampire couldn't love you.
Holtz had told him that once when he asked about weather or not his parents had loved him.
Today Angel had asked him if he wanted to go to a movie.
He had said yes and then he had trained with Angel to learn Angel's fighting tricks.
And he had learned a lot.
Angel used balance as an advantage.
Connor was going to use it against him.
Suddenly Cordelia's eyes went white.
Connor knew what that meant.
She was having a vision.
Angel came in as Cordy was coming out of it.
"Angel there's a cave and a monster. He has this glass mirror thing.
And is using it for evil.
It's some kind of magic mirror.
It was showing him something.
You have to go and stop him." Cordy said.
Angel looked over at Connor "Wanna come?" He asked
"Yeah!" Connor said as if it was a stupid question.
This was the perfect opportunity to tell his father what he really thought of him.
They could kill the monster and then he would take Angel to the beach where Justine would be waiting for his signal.
And so they headed out.
As Angel approached the cave he spoke to Connor.
"Look I don't know what this mirror does but since it's magic you should probably stay away from it." Angel suggested.
"Ok sure." Connor said not interested in a magic mirror anyways.
As they entered the cave they realized that the demon had already left.
"We missed him." Connor said and then saw the mirror that glowed green.
It was like nothing he had ever seen before.
He walked over to it.
"Connor wait. Be careful." Angel said.
Connor had been thinking of his father and then the mirror glowed again this time it showed him something.
It was the vampire Angel with a baby that he assumed was himself.
It was as if the mirror had pulled him back in time. It was as if he was there watching it all happen.
He saw Angel's hotel on fire. And Angel looking scared and then running in a different direction then what the door was in.
He followed Angel and watched as Angel pulled him from his crib and held him close as he escaped from the hotel.
Then the scene changed to further back.
The day he was born. Darla had just dusted herself so that he could live.
And then Angel picked the naked baby up and wrapped him in a blanket and then held him close. Then he saw Holtz come out and then point a cross bow at Angel and Angel turned so that if Holtz shot at him Angel would be the one hit.
And then the scene changed again to Cordelia and Angel. They were outside.
"What are you doing hey!" Angel complained as she took him outside
"were going outside. Where your son's going to want to play. You can't be everything for him Angel. You wont even let anyone else hold him. What if he gets sick and it's sunny outside. You wont be able to take him to a hospital." Cordy said.
"I don't care if it's the sunniest day of the year. He'll make it to the hospital. Even if I don't." Angel said looking down at his baby with love.
And then the scene changed again this time to Holtz and Angel and a demon he didn't recognize.
"What your looking into is the quor-toth the darkest of the dark worlds. Now kill that baby or all of this dimension will know what it is like there." The demon said looking at Holtz who was holding him.
And then he watched as Holtz jumped into the hell dimension that was once his home.
Then he saw Angel try to go after then and get stuck by lightning in his chest.
It propelled him back onto the ground. And he lay there.
In agony because his son was gone.
Connor couldn't bare the look or misery on Angel's face.
He never knew that he meant so much to Angel. And then it showed another scene.
This one was Justine and Holtz in the hotel where Connor had gotten their room at.
Maybe now he would know why Angel had killed Holtz.
But instead of Angel showing up.
He watched as Holtz ordered Justine to stab him in the neck twice with an ice pick.
Angel hadn't killed Holtz at all.
He made Justine kill him so that it would look like Angel had killed him.
Holtz wanted him to kill Angel for what he had done to his family.
And at that moment he realized that every word from Holtz mouth had been a lie.
He didn't love him.
But Angel did.
Angel.
Angel had always loved him.
And had been devastated when he was gone.
And how did he repay his father's love.
With betrayal.
He couldn't hurt Angel.
Angel had done nothing wrong.
Justine would pay dearly.
Did Angel even know that Holtz was dead?
Probably not.
Then he was thrown back into the cave where he had been before he knew the truth.
"OH my god. Connor are you okay. I was so worried that it was a portal." Angel asked frantically checking him over.
"It's a mirror of truth." Connor said as he looked at Angel.
"What? Why do you say that?" Angel asked.
Connor decided to test his theory.
"Who was the demon that opened the hell dimension that holtz took me to?" Connor asked.
From the look on Angels face he knew that he had seen the truth.
That yes a demon had opened the portal and everything else he had seen was true as well.
"Holtz is dead." Connor informed Angel.
Angel was stunned at that news for a moment.
"Did the mirror show you that?" Angel asked.
"No. I came to him last night when I heard that you were going after him. But when I found him he was dead with two holes in his neck as if a vampire had killed him. I assumed it was Angelus. The mirror showed me that Holtz made Justine stab him with an ice pick. To trick me into killing you. And I was going to. I was going to take you to the beach when we were done here. I was going to knock you out and then signal Justine and then I was going to put you in a wooden box and seal you in. then I was going to shove you into the bottom of the ocean so that you could suffer with hunger forever." Connor confessed.
Angel listened to his son. And he could also tell that his son was going to hurt Justine.
"Connor listen to me. Can you do me a favor and tell me what all you saw in the mirror?" Angel asked getting Connor's mind off of Justine.
"I was a baby in most of it. The hotel was on fire and you saved me. You wouldn't let anyone else but you hold me. You said that you didn't care if it was the sunniest day of the year. If I was sick I would make it to hospital. Even if you didn't. you protected me from the demons that came after me. You tried to protect me from Holtz. And I could never make you suffer as much as you did when I was taken from you. I saw your face. Complete and utter misery. I know that look. I've worn it many times. Holtz told me that you didn't love me. That even if you wanted to you couldn't love me. I know now that that was just a lie. Many of the things he said to me was a lie. I saw Darla. My mother. She staked herself to save me. So that I could be born. And then I saw Holtz point his Cross bow at you and then he saw me and lowered it. When he saw me he wanted to take me from you to hurt you. I'm sorry for what I've done since I've been back. I'm sorry I was going to put you in the ocean. I was confused. I didn't know the truth. And I'm sorry I am such a disappointment. I wish I could grow up again. With you this time. I know that you loved me. And I hope you can forgive me and come to love me again." Connor said hopefully.
Angel was stunned. His son thought that he was so mad at him that he didn't love him anymore. He had thought about what his son had confessed to. And about the things his son had seen in the mirror. He knew his son wasn't a bad kid. He was just raised by a man that hated his father. And had also tried to make Connor hate him too. But thanks to the mirror his son now knew the truth.
"I'll be back at the hotel later. I'm going after Justine.' Connor informed him.
"Connor NO! she was just as poisoned by Holtz as you were. And you don't hurt a human Connor. Your stronger then she is. And your now going after her." Angel corrected him.
"I'm sorry Angel. But I must. She has to pay for her part in this. Unless you want me to try some kind of magic to bring Holtz back and make him pay. Or maybe I should just find a portal that goes back in time and kill him before he can come after me." Connor said to himself.
"NO! NO portals No magic Connor I forbid it! You will never go through another portal again so just get that idea out of your head!" Angel raised his voice to his son.
But the idea was in Conner's head. And he was going to try to find a way to do it.
To be continued….